Change of a Season

Wow, well once again it has been a while since I have written. Not much happened in the month of August. Just worked at the hotel and focused on losing the stress in my life. Once September rolled around I had all of the fashion week castings. It was a rough season for me to say the least. I got really sick, half way into fashion week.... bronchitis to be exact. But I still had to prevail and did 3 shows where I thought I was going to pass out at each one.

I was really sick for the next week and a half when I finally gave in and went to the doctors. See I was raised my whole life to heal naturally when I got sick. I have NEVER taken an antibiotic. I have had tonsillitis, nasty colds and flus and even stepped on a rusty nail. Call me crazy but I healed naturally every time. Well this time around I was not getting better and I didn't have my mother, a boyfriend or any other friends to take care of me. I have never felt so sick in my life. You cant breathe with this horrible sickness so you get exhausted at doing pretty much anything. After losing 12 pounds from not eating and drinking so much water that I flushed everything out, I decided that going to the doctors wouldn't hurt. I live in New York for heavens sake, and life goes on; I had to get back to work and function like a normal person. It only took 6 days for me to start feeling better and I have never felt so alive and grateful to be healthy!

Now that the anticipation of fashion week is over, its time to get back to my normal schedule of castings, but sadly I don't have the motivation anymore. I have realized over the last few months how badly I want to go back to school and get started on my real career. I never said that modeling was the only thing I ever wanted to do, and I didn't say how long I would do it for, I only said I would try it. I am young and always on the go, always looking for the next best thing that is going to make me happy. Well the idea working with kids that have disabilities just thrills me. Its a job that doesn't focus on me and my benefit only. It is to benefit the lives and families of others; truly making a difference in the world.

I have a greater purpose in this world then just taking a pretty picture or having an amazing walk. Or even what celebrities I have met and what jobs I am booking. At the end of the day, none of these things matter and I am so thrilled to begin my new life...... coming much sooner then I or anyone else expected.