"In order to be irreplaceable, one must be different." -Coco Chanel

LaQuan Smith

LaQuan Smith

StyleTrek

Dress Reform

Dress Reform

Daniella Kallmeyer

Designers Collective

Yuna Yang

Well It's been a little while since I've written. September 9-16 was fashion week. I can proudly say I booked 7 but was in 6 shows/presentations which is pretty good for my first season. It was an amazing, stressful, and new experience. I have told my family and friends over and over again, I DO NOT advise anyone to get into modeling if they don't truly love and enjoy it. These past few weeks I have been going nonstop (with the exception of last week where I have finally gotten a break) with castings, shows and my other part time job. You have tons of people telling you how to dress, speak and be. I am not going to lie, I had a few breakdowns where I had to pull myself together and just get through whatever situation I was in. When you live in a world where most people are expecting you to fail and you are constantly competing and trying to prove yourself, it makes you wonder if it's worth it.

Well, I have thought a lot about this lately and for right now, it is worth it. I am only 19 years old and I get to live in New York City. I am going places and meeting people that other people only dream about achieving. And in the next year hopefully I will be going to Europe doing the same thing. I don't want to be one of those people that sits at home wishing I could be somewhere else. Even if I am worried about being able to pay next's month rent and food bills, it is still the experience of a life time. I am very blessed to be where I am at and I am SOO glad that when I came here I had my head on straight or I would already have my priorities mixed up. All the roomers you hear about the "modeling world" are very true.

So to get to my point about all this rambling is that going through blood sweat and tears to make it in this industry IS in fact worth it to me because I am going to prove to all of those people waiting for me to fail or screw my life up that not only am I going to make it in this industry, but I am going to do it with my pride and dignity intact remaining a "good girl" because folks, its possible, and like I said, I HAVE proved this to be true and will continue to prove this.

Anyway, here are some pics from shows, hope you enjoy them :)

This was my most recent shoot that I did Thursday....I'm not a bad girl, but I'm a pretty good actress

Finally moved IN!!!

The living room

Long hallway

Tiny bathroom

Tiny closet

Tiny room! hah I'm getting the bottom

So I have finally moved in to my Upper West Side apartment. It is located in a beautiful area with cute shops and stores along the street. It's a 2 bedroom one, bathroom with a little kitchen and living room. It is furnished and I will be sharing a room and tiny closet with another girl. I will also be paying an outrageous amount to live here, but that's New York for ya!

After searching and searching for apartments, looking at pictures, areas and finding them on google maps, this one is really the best out of all. It is in between Central Park and the river facing Jersey. It's also in a good area, and it is so cute inside!

So I moved the majority of my stuff in on Thursday so last night when came over with the rest of my stuff (small suitcase, travel bag w/computer and other random things/ bag of shoes, and 2 purses), it was 9pm....yes PM and PORING rain. My friend Melanie who I had been staying with luckily came to help me. We took the cross town bus over cause she is Upper East Side. But, we still had about 10 block to walk. On the walk over, not only were we completely soaking wet, but lost on paper bag that had items in it. Let me tell you, it was so much fun!! Especially when the "puddles" get so big that the develop a current. It got to the point where I wasn't even annoyed anymore, I thought it was hilarious!

Then today I locked myself out and couldn't figure how to get back in. So I got myself a mani pedi and when I got back, the other roommates were back and they showed me how to open it. There are always little problems that always seem to happen to me every time I experience change in my life. Oh well, I have bigger things to stress about! Happy Monday.

"Evil Stepmothers"

I have been watching a handful of Disney movies lately. Have you ever noticed that there is always an evil Stepmother or Queen? This intrigued me as well as causing me to google image "evil stepmothers". I noticed that all off these women literally look like the devil's wives.

Another thing they have in common is they are all incredibly jealous creatures. For instance, Cinderella's evil stepmother made her stay home and clean all day because she knew that she was beautiful and she didn't want the prince finding her. The evil queen wanted to kill snow white because she was jealous of her beauty; and because of her selfishness, she wanted to be the fairest in all the land. In Enchanted, the evil stepmother wanted all the power, so she did everything possible to get rid of Giselle so she wouldn't marry the prince. So really, these evil women don't like people who threaten their existence.

MEANING: if you are more pretty (which you most likely are), smarter and nicer then them, that stepmother is going to feel threatened and is going to do anything in her power to get rid of you....funny I feel like I have seen this actually happen in real life.

Really, it is just immaturity on these evil women's part. If they would grow up and get over the fact that they really aren't pretty and no matter what they do, they cannot get rid of the princess, it would make everyones life easy. PLUS, really who do they think they are?? They are the STEPmother, not real mother. They are the person that their father married so he can get some action but stay moral. It's funny that Disney puts stuff like this in their movies to entertain older people while they watch movies with their kids, or other young people.


So EVIL STEPMOTHERS: Jealously will destroy you. Please get over yourselves and do what you ladies do best; looking like somebody hit you in the face with a frying pan and shoved a stick up your crotch. :)

As for those princesses, keep going strong, you get the happily ever after!!

Sick Days

I HATE being sick. I would rather be hot and sweating 24/7 then be sick. You feel so miserable!

Well, to explain why I am mostly sick, this is whats going on right now....
I finally got a part time job after applying for for literally 20 here in the city. It is really hard to get a job anywhere unless you had a reference from somewhere else. I now work at the Soho Grand Hotel at their outside restaurant called "The Yard". It is really pretty and because its during the summer, it is really nice at night. So the Yard doesn't open up until 4pm and we don't close until 1am usually. I only work the weekends, but as the days went on, I stayed later and later. Thursday I got out by 1am. Friday I was out by 1:30am, and Saturday.....I didn't leave until 2:30 so I didn't even get home until 3am!! This is because the people litterally would not leave.

I also have been quite stressed about finding an apartment. It is by far the worst thing I have had to accomplish while here in the city. People are extremely shady and there are sooo many scams. It is also really hard to find an apartment less then $1000....This is not including other bills like food, metro card (unlimited subway pass), and other random things like a taxi. Fortunately my new part time job has AMAZING pay, and I finally found an apartment that might work out. I am going to look at it tomorrow so crossing my fingers it will work and I can be done with the search for now.

So aside from having watery eyes, being extremely congested and suffering from major fatigue, life here is great!! There are always sacrifices for what you want in life and it is a matter of deciding what is important. Time to buy some tissues!

Rocky Runway

As most people know, it is super expensive to live in the city. I found a shared apartment about 2 weeks ago in a great location for an awesome price. I was supposed to move in, in 4 days.....I got a text from a girl that would have been my roommate today saying that a good friend of hers is moving to the city and they were letting her take the spot!!!! This has now caused me to go on a search frenzy trying to find a new apartment. Luckily I have some great friends that are helping me find one, but it is still stressful.

Not only do I have to find a new apartment now, but I have also been looking for a part time job for the past few weeks. It takes a few months to really get the ball rolling to make decent money here and I only have enough money to support myself for the next 2 or 3 months. It's kinda a scray spot to be in, but I know that everything is going to work out the way it needs to and I obviously wasn't meant to live in that apartment.

On a positive note, this week I have already auditioned with 3 Milan agencies to be represented by in Italy. And tomorrow I meet with a Japanese agency. How awesome would that be if I ended 2010 going to a foreign country to model?!

Life will always throw your curve balls, but it is what you make of them that will determine your additude. I am an optimistice person and this little situation cannot and will not bring me down!!

It's Official

Well I accomplished what I came here to accomplish. I signed with APM Model Management last Monday and they have been keeping me very busy with castings. I was supposed to go home in 2 days, but I am now staying here until the holidays, and even then will only be home for visits. My contract is for 2 years so I will be here in the city for a while! Fashion week is coming up so lets pray that I book a few shows!

It's so crazy and surreal when you have wanted something for so long and then you finally start getting closer to it.....now I know how Justin Beiber feels hah. The city life is awesome and I move into my apartment in about a week and a half.

They say time flies by when you're having fun, but I feel like it's slowing down so I can enjoy the ride. Everyone has goals and aspirations, don't be afraid to just go for it! Often times when you throw yourself in to the unknown, that is when you feel and receive the most joy.

New York!

Well I have currently been in New York for about 2 weeks and I am just loving it! The first 4 days my mom and older sister were with me and we did all of the sight seeing together...very tiring but fun! After they left I have been doing some major hunting for a new agent.

Today, one of my dreams came true. I was offered a 2 year contract from APM Model Management, which is of course an agency in New York. They have already arranged for my first casting. It's absolutely crazy how fast things are moving! I was originally supposed to fly home on July 21st, but my plans home will "unfortunately" be delayed until September because of NY Fashion Week. It is all so surreal and I feel soooo blessed to be where I am at in my life.

Life lesson: ALWAYS go for your dreams and NEVER let anyone or anything bring you down. Do what makes you happy and in the end you can say you didn't have a single regret.